He does.
you might not notice it when you go through your day to day life. you might not feel it when you eat your favourites, even after youve wiped out a plate of your gorgeous meal, oh no.
you might not know it even looking at pictures of yourself because sometimes, the camera lies.
but then it hits you!
you start to notice, you're starting to wear your fvourite "fat jeans" more and more. you start to notice you get out of breath when walking your favourite trail. your spring/summer clothes suddenly felt as if they shrunk from hibernating in your drawers. you start to look less in the mirror (so un-you), and you start to get uninterested in clothes shopping so suddenly (again, so un-you).
then you see yourself climbing up the ladder of sizes when you're shopping (only because you have to shop because youre travelling in a few days).
then you realize, the inevitable has happened. you just added another one/two sizes up your normal clothes.
and then you go home, feeling frustrated and angry for letting this happen to you.
but because you're a fighter, you decide, theres no use feeling angry and berate yourself because you allowed it. you were seduced,after all, by the sweet and tempting goodies that parade infront of you. and worst, you just sit your fat ass infront of the television, after overstuffing yourself.
you decide to fight on.
then you turn on the aerobics dvd you bought years ago. the same dvd that started to decay under dust and cobwebs.
and you start to hope, that dinner tonight will be less tasty so the 300 calories you lost will not go in vain.
dear God, shall we cancel our barbeque tomorrow?
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reminder for yourself...you must not continue your spiral into the abyss of morbid obesity..why?
hats cant cover those ugly rolls in your waistline
there's a limit to until when you can keep pretending you're pregnant when you buy at the maternity section
there's only so much a smile can do..yes, it can cover up your embarassment when they ask when you're due, but it cant wash away your feeling bloated and unhealthy.
there's only so much make-up can do..MAC yet has to create a body fat foundation,honey.
even a good pose cant hide your flabs (and the flabs of the one behind you,lol)
there's only so much beach covering that can cover you up,for peopple to not run away when they see you at the beach. or perhaps, there will come a time,they might ban selling swimsuits to people your size.
---most of all...
mr.nelson wont like being photographed beside you if you stay the way you are.
so, really, if you cant lose it...maintain it (as you always planned).
life is already short (with all the good graces you're showered with),you dont want it to be cut even shorter with a heart attack.
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(self reprimand folks...i just had a worst day,having to go clothes buying today, i felt like i was "blobby fattina" infront of the darn badly lit dressing room mirrors). there were sooo mnay beautiful spring clothes, and i,my poor self cannot buy them even with money i worked hard for, because im now on a higher size than i used to. ahak!
anyone care to join me, doing the taebo?
Saturday, 11 April 2009
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I know the feeling, but you were able to do it before so i know you can do it again...
just don't lose sight of the goal..health and of course for fashion purposes...
fighting!
hahahahaha! buing gyud ka chel! you know, i feel the same way all the time -- feeling bloated, frustrated, embarassed (people always ask me when i'm due). but there's only so much taebo can do. thank God for diet pills. LOL!
seriously, you can lose weight uy. you did it before. =)
nalingaw ko nimo! i will be your police again! sige work out ta na hehehe!
hahaha! makalingaw man jud ka chel oi. =) seriously, you can do it, chel, healthily. *hugs*
I know the feeling, but you were able to do it before so i know you can do it again...
just don't lose sight of the goal..health and of course for fashion purposes...
fighting!
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hi kai!!!=) you remembered how i lost weight thru taebobefore?haha=)grabe to siya, na over rasad to. coz even if alas onse na sa gabii ko maabot from laag, hala mag taebo gihapon=)
i will not lose sight of the purpose: health mainly...and yes, the clothes Ana, frustrating kaayo..
im sure i'll be successful..i just want to go 2 sizes down=)
hahahahaha! buing gyud ka chel! you know, i feel the same way all the time -- feeling bloated, frustrated, embarassed (people always ask me when i'm due). but there's only so much taebo can do. thank God for diet pills. LOL!
seriously, you can lose weight uy. you did it before. =)
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hahaha=) ai, malingaw ko nimo=) hey, dili baya ka dako ha!!! ai, dont do diet pills oi...esp if ikaw dili ka dako=) id kill for a body like yours=)
i will do it ai=) thnaks for the encouragement=)
nalingaw ko nimo! i will be your police again! sige work out ta na hehehe!
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yeah be my police again=) ikaw diha sige naka exercise, 1 hour walking to akio's school=) keep it up=)
hahaha! makalingaw man jud ka chel oi. =) seriously, you can do it, chel, healthily. *hugs
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hi jane, mao gyud, il do this healthily=) beides, wala man ko gadali, im doing this for my stamina and energy=) bloated kaayo akng paminaw pirmi...i think i need to detox, grabe na siguro kaayo akong toxins sa lawas...thanks janey jin jin=)
gosh, i feel that this entry is also for me, especially the first part! nahadlok na hinuon ko because i've been trying to block my conscience while gorging on my favorite food the past weeks. :(
but yes, if we'd want to lose weight, it should be because we want to be healthy. im scared of hypertension and diabetes, it's in the blood. waah. hay. if diri pa ka mingla chel, willing ko makig taebo nimo. it's no fun doing it alone. :(
chelo you can do it! i know you can! just think of all the nice outfits you can wear!
"gosh, i feel that this entry is also for me, especially the first part! nahadlok na hinuon ko because i've been trying to block my conscience while gorging on my favorite food the past weeks. :("
hala kaith, kadaot nimo=) you deserve to gorge and indulge=)
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"but yes, if we'd want to lose weight, it should be because we want to be healthy. im scared of hypertension and diabetes, it's in the blood. waah. hay. if diri pa ka mingla chel, willing ko makig taebo nimo. it's no fun doing it alone. :("
thats correct, its always about health (id also be lying if second close to that reason is to wear nice clothes, but if not even for that, health is priority)..i wish i got you girls here too, id go to the gym with you=)
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chelo you can do it! i know you can! just think of all the nice outfits you can wear!
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mao!!!thats a great motivator patricia=)
2x a week ra ning lakaw nako to and from akio's school uy, perteng laaya. i think i'm going to ask santa for an mp3 player or perhaps a fancy new phone w/radio man lang! tough luck!
chel, bitaw shopping for new and hip clothes should motivate you to drop a few sizes. vanity and health ;-)
2x a week ra ning lakaw nako to and from akio's school uy, perteng laaya. i think i'm going to ask santa for an mp3 player or perhaps a fancy new phone w/radio man lang! tough luck!
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yeah, have an ipod, mas lingaw=) get the nano,its small and easier to carry around=)
chel, bitaw shopping for new and hip clothes should motivate you to drop a few sizes. vanity and health ;-)
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che,mao lagi oi, hopefully,haha=)
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