Sunday 11 October 2009

reality sinks in

i have come to realize: gosh, im actually just TWO WEEKS in cebu this december. the third week in spent on a holiday in another island with family.

take away the christmas holidays and new year celebrations (and the cousins and relatives tete-a-tete), im literally gasping for days to be in my fave island of sugbo. (that makes it literally 1 week of socializings).


i may have been too over zealous in promising people that i will see them..but too optimistic,maybe?


i need to segregate and allocate time.

i know there are some people, that come hail or water, no matter thunder and earthquake, i will not cancel, and i will be a their mercy because they are my constants (in real life or blog life, in happiness and in sadness, and in silliness or seriousness, they are there).


but maybe, this is also call time for me, to show those deserving of my time, attention and effort ,hehe..


because in my trying to be fair,i have been unfair to those who always have been there.


(its probably like being a mother, one cant keep giving recognition to all her twelve children when only one or two has done their part).

sigh, being a good friend, is easy....being a fair friend, is the hardest.


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i wish i am a real supergirl...

*summoning wonder woman's powers*



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and a Mika udate...

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(Mika's photos taken by her dad's mobile)..



my little niece is growing big and strong *buyag*..

she is now 5 kilos plus..and to think she''s barely two months..apparently she drinks way too much milk,and does the usual baby business of sleeping the entire time.

everytime i see her photo, it just makes me happy. so happy in fact, that i know whatever life throws us, it will be okay.

now, if God didnt plan me to be a cool dudette of a mom..who said, i cant be the coolest kick-ass aunt there is?


*karate face*

16 comments:

Aileen said...

hmmm, fairness, it's a big word. i personally want to be fair. most times, i just follow my heart. because really, we can't judge why some people have lapses in the attention they give us.

i have been questioning some of my friendships recently, too.

but then, to those i love, i will stay even when sometimes i wonder if they love me back.

Aileen said...

mika is the luckiest little girl there is!

Lynette said...

excuse me - but who says you're not a real supergirl??

hiddenrage said...

hmmm, fairness, it's a big word. i personally want to be fair. most times, i just follow my heart. because really, we can't judge why some people have lapses in the attention they give us.

i have been questioning some of my friendships recently, too.

but then, to those i love, i will stay even when sometimes i wonder if they love me back.

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if i follow my heart ai, wala na gyud ko'y time matug.LOL..i want to see everybody..=)

i agree ai, those we love, we will stand by them...we dont question them...(besides, we know who love us, there are no inkling of a doubt with that).

if time is a problem,the best solution is time management and prioritizing,LOL...

im talking about half-formed friendships (those friendships which are still on the cusp of blossoming) or those old friendships lost in time, but both parties are not communicating, as much..yet there were plans of meet-ups and what-have-you's...is it really worth it when i only have a short time to enjoy myself? id rather share my time with people who appreciate my company the same i do theirs, di ba?=)

i guess, im just giving myself permission to think about myself, this time, instead of pleasing others for a change.

sounds like a great plan already...=)

see you december pohon!!!(and the rest of the superheroines!)...

hiddenrage said...

mika is the luckiest little girl there is!

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so are your nephews and nieces Ai=) i want you to be my auntie next lifetime.=)

hiddenrage said...

excuse me - but who says you're not a real supergirl??

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si captain barbell! LOL..


joking aside, everyday is a reminder for me, that i am not as flawless as i want to be..

oh, rhyming na ha!=) LOL

Aileen said...

im talking about half-formed friendships (those friendships which are still on the cusp of blossoming) or those old friendships lost in time, but both parties are not communicating, as much..yet there were plans of meet-ups and what-have-you's...is it really worth it when i only have a short time to enjoy myself? id rather share my time with people who appreciate my company the same i do theirs, di ba?=)

i guess, im just giving myself permission to think about myself, this time, instead of pleasing others for a change.

sounds like a great plan already...=)

see you december pohon!!!(and the rest of the superheroines!)...

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yes, i agree. there are 'friendships' not really worthy of our time. and since you have limited time when you're here, you are right about prioritizing your happiness and which friends you want to see.

i can't wait to have you here.

one of the best christmases i ever had was when i first met you. since then, decembers have become even more special. =)

hiddenrage said...

yes, i agree. there are 'friendships' not really worthy of our time. and since you have limited time when you're here, you are right about prioritizing your happiness and which friends you want to see.

i can't wait to have you here.

one of the best christmases i ever had was when i first met you. since then, decembers have become even more special. =)


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that december meeting with you stays so fresh in my memory ai..not least because i gave you pellets in the gift that i gave you...=) but all the more better reason to meet up with you again..=)


thanks ai..i think you know what i mean...=)

it was different last year, as i had 2 months to stay there..now, with only 3 weeks christmas vacation(for me as a student,LOL), waaahh, every minute is precious..

i promise you, when and or if mu graduate ko, i will spend at least two months vacation in the PHils, para maka visit ko nimo all the time in Manila, as well as you come to cebu too..deal? *hugs*

konsuy said...

mika mika mika. ka lami hagkan bataa oi.

hiddenrage said...

hahahaha=) thank you chi=)

Patricia said...

chelo, two weeks! way to short! i want to see you at least 3 times even if i have to go to your house!

hiddenrage said...

Patricia=) of course oi!!!with you, no doubt i will see you, hantud mapul-an naka nako=) LOL...muhapit pa gani mi ni Tita Loy and Tito Rudy =)i need to take them out for a treat as my christmas present for them both=)

come to my house, sige, we'll do a little english tea session=)

PS: can i see Raoul too? LOL..nisingit pagyud,hahaha=)

Shutterfairy said...

Ask Khandi for super powers she'll give you some.

Reserve 26 Chel because I'm planning on a thanksgiving party (passing the board, moms bday, my sis passing the board and i hope nclex, too). It'll also be our Christmas get together.. All of you will meet my little family, Leo included.

Merry Christmas gyud ni because this is the only time i'll be thanking the heavens with a big party. hehehe..

Shutterfairy said...

Pat let's go to Chelo's house and cook cook there.. hahaha..

nagbuot buot nasad..

hiddenrage said...

Ask Khandi for super powers she'll give you some.

Reserve 26 Chel because I'm planning on a thanksgiving party (passing the board, moms bday, my sis passing the board and i hope nclex, too). It'll also be our Christmas get together.. All of you will meet my little family, Leo included.

Merry Christmas gyud ni because this is the only time i'll be thanking the heavens with a big party. hehehe..


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hahaha,sige ako ni gitikon si khandi,mnagyo ko powers niya,haaha=)

wow!!! how amazing mai=) i would love to be there on that day=) unsa, lunch or dinner? para masulat daan sa kalendaryo..=)hahaha=)

im excited!!! =)xxx

hiddenrage said...

Pat let's go to Chelo's house and cook cook there.. hahaha..

nagbuot buot nasad..

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sus, mao gyud akong plano unta..mangadto ta sa house namo ni ading kay kami ra duha tawo didto (ug si nang conching,LOL)..

mag cook cook gyud ta=) feel free=) yeyy!!!