Sunday 29 March 2009

she'll never know

i miss my nanay (my lola on my father's side).

even now,because of circumstances that lead to us not being considered as part of her family anymore (some of her daughters have deemed us outcast), id still miss her and her voice. everytime i hear her talk, she reminds me of my papa...

she will never know how much she is missed.

and she will never know.

that is why i pray and pray for her to still be healthy and happy, so that if time will come she will not be manipulated by her daugthers anymore, i'd be able to hug her. and be allowed to go see her without any unjust comments from some of her children.

i miss her so much. and i hope she is well.



photo: nanay and ana at ana's 18th party...photo not mine...


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10 comments:

Aileen said...

nakahilak gyud ko ani, chel. grandmothers are supposed to be part of our lives. *sniff*

hiddenrage said...

nakahilak gyud ko ani, chel. grandmothers are supposed to be part of our lives. *sniff*

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thanks for sympathizing ai=)...you know, she is the biggest link to my papa (apart from my sibs), and whenever i see her and hear her voice she reminds me so much of his memories...i cry sometimes to think that the family has broken down and that i cant be there for her,but theres just no justice being kicked out from your father's inheritance because he's dead (not my lola's decision by the way..an instigator and a conspiratorial auntie which paved this way)..obviously tigulang na si lola,she's easiy swayed to do what they say..
i always believe in prayers and the heavens to make me see her and to hug her again...

sometimes, i just want to kidnap her and hug her, but i cant do that now, i cant even go through my lola's gates without being kicked out by relatives who are money-greedy.

i so agree ai, lola's should be part of our lives...youre so lucky who have both lolas and lolo's who adore you=)

trinity said...

my dear I didnt know about this blog! nakahilak ko. How sad, this circumstance. I have had the best grandmothers in the world.

Kaith said...

oh chel. this is heartbreaking. i can't imagine not seeing and hearing my grandmothers' voices. what if u send somebody to fetch her then mag rendezvous lang mo? hehe.

Shutterfairy said...

made me miss my lola.. sniff..

hiddenrage said...

my dear I didnt know about this blog! nakahilak ko. How sad, this circumstance. I have had the best grandmothers in the world.

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hi fil!!! welcome to my semihidden blog,haha=) this was an un announced blog..just a little space where i write, and if people found me here, it was meant to be..*hugs*
you are so swerte to have had the freedom to love your lola..in fairness, ive had a long time with her, when we were young, but being a large family, i was not the favourite, but it didnt matter, she was my favourite,haha=)

hiddenrage said...

oh chel. this is heartbreaking. i can't imagine not seeing and hearing my grandmothers' voices. what if u send somebody to fetch her then mag rendezvous lang mo? hehe.

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hi kaith, i have imagined all sorts of ways..in fact, i wanted karla to kidnap her for me, but i didnt want karla to get in trouble than she already is (for being so friendly-friendly with me and my family) =) karla is willing to do anything i ask her, but its not fair on her too, as my ex relatives are still her relatives,haha=)
apart from her, no one could kidnap my lola..our lola is the spoilt person in our family, the tinitingala, the queen, rightly so, but because old na siya, medyo dali na siya ma-sway into believing things which arent true..we dont blame her.she takes the side of her daughters..and of course, daughters come first=)

hiddenrage said...

made me miss my lola.. sniff..

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hugs mai=) it must be hard for you..i miss my lola even if im not the favourite, i can imagine how much you miss her, you were the apple of their eye=)

plain jin said...

*hugs* chel.

hiddenrage said...

*hugs* chel

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*hugs back*